Intend. Act. Repeat. Ugh.
I have a big exciting project that I want to be working on, but resistance is strong today.
So much resistance!
I feel like a kid who has been assigned an essay to write.
I have the framework. I have the outline. I even have the paragraph topic sentences.
But when I sit down to hammer out the word count - BOOM - resistance.
"Oh I need a cup of tea!" It says.
"You know what's a good idea? Snack time."
Or my least favourite: you need to do more research!
Procrastination and avoidance can look like "working".
That last one is particularly sneaky.
If I wait until I have ALL THE PIECES, I likely won't start.
Not starting definitely means not completing.
But it also means not failing.
And not succeeding.
It's not only failure that holds us back.
The idea of success is also uncomfortable.
Who will I be if this succeeds?
How does me succeeding invalidate who I was before?
When I complete this project, my existence will be pointless...
DISCOMFORT! Unknown! Anxiety!
It's almost easier to play the failure script.
"I'm not going to try because I've already failed."
BAH to failure! I demand proof dagnabit!
I bet I'm not alone.
Is there a project in your life that fear of the unknown is holding you back from?
Or fear of the likely?
Well lovelies, trust me when I say that you have been learning new things and growing every day.
We are meant to grow as human beings.
When you were little, you likely put one foot in front of the other and learned to walk eventually.
You didn't think - I can't run yet, so why bother trying.
Where are these baby steps going to take you.
Or simply, just take them.
Take those steps and join me in discovering where these steps take us.
We have the skills to make this successful!
And we will do it at a pace that is appropriate for our minds and bodies as we grow into who we are called to be. And who we are calling ourselves to be.
So. How are you going to step out of your own way this week and step into who you are becoming?
I am going to set the intention that I sit with my project for 30 minutes a day in 10 minute blocks to see where the steps lead. It's a start!
Wish me luck!
Very much love,
Tea-loving awesomeness. Challenging perfectionism.